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Writer's Block: 10 Years From Now [Sep. 14th, 2010|04:30 pm]
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[mood |cheerfulcheerful]

Where do you see yourself 10 years from now?

Hmm, ten years from now. Well, I shall be thirty-one, and, with any luck, gainfully employed. First off, I will be living in England, perhaps around Cambridge, or perhaps around Yorkshire... now I think definitely in East Anglia, either aorund Cambridge or on the sea. I will have at least obtained my masters in Early Modern History, and perhaps my Doctorate. Then I suppose I can become a University prof. and rock a tweed jacket with elbow pads.

Perhaps, I will even take up painting again, and gain some income from art. I would hope to have someone special in my life, but as long as I am happy with who I am, I will be pleased enough.

Also, it is an absolute necessity that I have a fireplace and a library... even just a small one. I want a room for my books... with a big comfy chair... and a window overlooking fields that Pippin can relax upon when he decides my lap is just not enough for him.

I see myself being fairly happy... definitely. I cannot wait.
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Table for chem15try [May. 30th, 2010|10:14 pm]
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[mood |creativecreative]

Law of conservation of energy
Transition state
Isolated system

I think that moodCat thing is on crack or somesuch.
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(no subject) [May. 25th, 2010|02:51 pm]
[mood |pleasedpleased]

I found a fascinating article on BBC.co.uk today.


It seems that humans are beginning to realize that (-gasp-) we are not the only highly evolved, intelligent animals on this bloody planet. I am beyond pleased by this news! This comes of the heels of discoveries about the cultural and intellectual abilities of whales and dolphins. Governments and scientific agencies are considering the ethical implications of whaling as well as the educational value of holding such fantastic creatures in captivity for human amusement.

I can only hope that this is the beginning of some greater movement. A lessening of the notion of human exceptionalism, and a blossoming of the appreciation for and respect of other life forms on this planet. In essence we have treated our fellow Earthly inhabitants in the exact manner as Americans treated Native Americans. These animals(with a pejorative edge) have not cultivated the land correctly, they do not live as we do, they go naked, and they have no concept of language or communication; therefore, we can take their habitats and destroy as we wish to make it suitable for our tastes. Well, again we find that merely because we cannot verbally communicate with another does not mean there is no spark, no essential intellect in the other.

It would be sad not to be able to see these magnificent beings up close and personal. I have always enjoyed the zoo. At the same time though, what are most zoos but dignified jails? Not that I am saying there is no value. Some zoos, and similar enclosures that are more, how shall I put this, "free-range", do great things for critically endangered species. I just can't imagine what it would be like to be utterly trapped and unable to live as I am driven to. I feel this way especially about the big cats and wolves. Animals that are inherently intelligent and skilled hunters over vast territories with highly structured social orders within their groups. This aspect of zoos has kept me away from them since I reached my teenage years. Looking at the creatures in their enclosures brings a great sadness to my heart.


Erm... I suppose I will now step down from my soapbox as I think I may be embarrasing myself. that's alright though; I am unconventional, quirky, and a rather queer in my ideas and such, but I suppose if no one thought outside of convention we'd exist in stasis, never moving beyond, never transcending.

In any case, I'm sure that though most may not agree with the extent to which I push this notion, many will agree with the studies and hopefully we can all move to a more harmonious coexistance with our fellow earthlings.
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(no subject) [Mar. 24th, 2010|07:54 am]
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[mood |contemplativecontemplative]

I've just read that the amount of people asking to be buried with electronic devices is steadily increasing. This seems like both a major -facepalm- and a facinating development for future archaeological digs. Assuming, of course, that humanity survives long enough for all of us to become hardened piles of dust and remains - I am think at least one to two millenia here, around the temporal distance seperating us from, say, the Anglo Saxons - think of how befuddled future archaeologists will be by our obsession with technology.

Of course, this is not a new phenomenon for humanity. Anglo Saxons were buried with beads and other goods and tools. For a long time, though, I thought the trend was towards religious goods rather than solely material given the shift in mainstream religious focus from the concrete, material world to the ephermeral. Actually, it is quite like ancient warriors and hunters being buried with their tools. Electronic devices are the contemporary tool of choice for humanity... I like that better than guns for damn sure.

Still, regardless of what one may believe about what happens after death... YOU ARE NOT GOING TO BE ABLE TO USE THE BLOODY BLACKBERRY.

The nature of humanity is also fun to ponder over. I love being a historian! XD
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(no subject) [Mar. 25th, 2009|08:11 pm]
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[music |Modest Mouse: Custom Concern]

Title: Losing All Touch
Fandom/Claim: Lost/Daniel Faraday
Rating: PG
Prompt: 14. Enantiomers
Summary: Wherein Daniel makes a promise he knows he can't keep

I don"t feel at all like I thought...Collapse )
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(no subject) [Sep. 15th, 2008|08:46 pm]
[mood |calmcalm]

I ought to be working on my Ethics paper. Alternatively, I could be studying Latin for that comprehensive review retake test with all Verb conjugations and declensions... and ablative and accusative forms... and adverb and adjectives.

Instead, I am goofing off because thinking of everything that I need to get done makes me feel overwhelmed and I psych myself out.

In conclusion, Go Eagles!

And, as an afterthought, Sociology of Religion is the worst excuse for a Sociology class that ever existed. Seriously, it's more theology than sociology; I did not sign up for that, damnit.
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(no subject) [Jun. 1st, 2008|02:14 pm]
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[music |Flogging Molly: 'The Lightning Storm']

Title: The Lightning Storm
Fandom/Claim: Lost/Daniel Faraday
Rating: PG
Prompt: 3. Equilibrium
Summary: When it rains, he can almost remember what he has lost

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(no subject) [Apr. 26th, 2008|11:32 am]
[mood |ecstaticecstatic]
[music |Urban Tapestry: 'Waiting for Frodo']

Okay, is anyone else having the best bloody week ever?

First an amazing new episode of Lost (of course it was spoiled a bit for me because I wanted to go into a chat room to talk about the episode as it happened and the room was sabotagued by a troll >.< must do a proper re-watch), and then news of THE HOBBIT movie! And The SEQUEL to the Hobbit! -capers- finally more LotR goodies to squee over.

Oh yeah, and the comic writer who did the online comic Waiting for Frodo is going to do a Waiting for Bilbo.

Life is gooood. XD
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(no subject) [Mar. 6th, 2008|10:13 pm]
[mood |giddygiddy]

Note for straightening the Newstand area at work:

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(no subject) [Jan. 1st, 2008|12:32 pm]
[mood |pensivepensive]

Rung in the New Year with my friends, at a strange dual-party where we were the tame group... I suppose. Another friend was having a large party with drinking and such with her two groups of friends. Our group was the sober group that felt a smidge out of place. It was alright though - Nate, Steve, and I made a Genaurdi's run at 10 when we were basically the only three there. It was a roaring good time.

After the ball dropped a couple of us left the party to hang out elsewhere and have deep conversations about the path towards the ultimate truth and other great questions to ponder at the turning of the year. I am seriously considering becoming a Won Buddhist, it seems like a good path with many communities for group practice in the area(Philly seems to be a popular Buddhist hub, go figure).

The only thing holding me back from this move is my irrational, semi-conscious belief that I deserve the punishment of emotional suffering. I do not know why I believe I deserve this, only that it feels as though in my past I've done something heinous and I need penance. The only thing is, I'm really not one for heinous - I'm an eccentric, but beside my straying from the path of what is socially preferred, I am rather tame in my actions. I'm an scholarly-spiritual type, not a party-type, drinker, or smoker - and nothing really happen adverse to me in my formative years. My hunch is that it was a mix of going to a Catholic elementary school(no offense to Catholics, though I left the religion at 12, I believe it is not bad or wrong in and of itself) and my inate hyper-sensitivity.

What makes my state worse is that I am rationally irrational; I know my actions are irrational, I know the rational thought process I should follow, and, furthermore, I know how to change my state. I am, however, paralysized by fear. I fear changing my state. I fear happiness. At least in general sadness, I cannot fall, I have fallen already and my state is no longer precarious. Happiness carries the possibility that I could fall. I could be content, I could have good things, I could like myself, but then I could end up dissappointing myself. I could fail myself and everyone I love... and I do not know which state is worse.

One ought not worry about the future, it cannot be affected by anything but present actions. Being paralysized by fear does not stop one from getting hurt, only from living, and what good is a life of sadness, consistent sadness, but sadness all the same, when one could easily live, and experience every facet of life and emotion.

I know all this, but I still do not know whether I can follow it.

Won't you sing to me
The perfect song
That I might smile again
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